Life is like seasons. Spring brings new life experiences, summer we bend into those experiences. Fall, like the leaves on trees, may bring changes in relationships. Winter brings time to rest on those changes.
I was in a tribe. That tribe is in new versions of themselves where I am no longer needed because I have fulfilled my role in their lives as Creator meant it to be.
I want to feel that I am good enough. That’s an inside job! I have friends who I do some things with that I don’t do with others. People who love and accept me as I am.
I remember one friend who I first met at a conference. She has come a long way and I believe I have had a large positive influence on her. And her influence in my life was life-giving. I am forever thankful for that. Respect that, Patricia. Honor that. Be grateful for how Creator brought us together for just those purposes. And now it’s time to move on. Our season is done.
That friend has grown so much. Has so much more confidence with being in the public. Her business is thriving. Be happy for her. Love her as she is. She, like all of us, is doing the best she can with the resources she has. And she has incredible resources.
I feel lonely at times. And that’s on me. My low self-esteem. Then I remember that I am in choice. Remembering to breathe slow and low. Remembering to be in this moment! I forget that I am perfect in every moment and Creator offers me all that I need and want. I am at peace when I remember to be connected with Creator and listen! Forgive myself and them.
There are two friends, her, the other of 35 years, that have moved on. I am reminded that for everything there is a season. And life and Creator have presented me with a renewal of past, long-term friends that feed me so well. My job is to listen and be open to new experiences. I am thankful.
Amen.